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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

like moths to a lightbulb

i swear i'm not hooked

its been almost three months since i quit, and looking at the desperate need of these kids, i must admit, it feels so great!!!! really, its not the cigarette they need, its the light; the spotlight.

i was walking around ruby rabbit the other night, shooting for RIOT. wow! and as i sloshed around, snapping the hotties, there were these three particular kids, who kept catching my eye.

now i must add here, its hard to stand appart from a room of ridiculously goodlooking people, particularly when you too are ridiculously good looking. but for some reason, they just kept catching my eye.

and now, looking at this photo it all becomes crystal clear! that little tinsy deposit of nicoteen, trapped somewhere between my last cigarette, and my first hypercolour drag at the tender age of 12 was ensnared by the zippo glow.

my eyes dilate, nostril flare, mouth forms a pout; pre-light-up stance. and there they have it. within a split second i am over there, pushing past the throngs of rival scenesters, to capture this moment of harmony, as lighter sparks, cigarettes drawn attention to the rouge lips, the flash of my camera, and exhale.

once a smoker always a smoker. with, or without you, my sweet cigarette.

11 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

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5:31 PM  
Blogger Locket said...

How much do you hate spam Cybele Malinowski? Do you (like me) get all excited and think someone(who isn't trying to enlarge your penis or sell you an eletrical appliance)has made a comment?

I stopped smoking a couple of weeks ago. Just woke up one morning and decided I would never buy another deck. I find watching other people's dependence heartening, in that it's not me anymore.

And some people look truly hideous when they suck it back, all lemon-sucking lip wrinkles and need.

Yay us!

Locket

12:50 AM  
Blogger freenanoipod said...

Hey, you have a great blog here! I've bookmark you!

I have a ipod nano site. It pretty much covers ipod related stuff.

Come and check it out if you get time :-)

Question do you have a rss feed link that i can add to my yahoo?
as i cant seem to find it.

9:54 AM  
Blogger cybele malinowski said...

i hate spam soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! i mean whatever, advertise, spread the love, thats fine. thats what blogs are all about really. whether it be advertising you banal life, your cheesy pics, your multinational company, same goes. but what hurts is me thinking ooooooh someone commented about whatever crap i wrote. but no. you know what i say??? we start a spam war!!!!!!!!!

2:55 PM  
Blogger rhymes with pony said...

you know last week i saw an ad on thegumtree.com looking for ladies to sit in there underwear and talk to camera about the pleasures they get from smoking. not sure if this helps.
spam sucks but you can kill it by doing this:go to settings/comments and say yes to word verification (thanks to little nemo for this).
great photos ps

9:42 AM  
Blogger scaryasakitten said...

Hey Cybele, don't attack the spam too much, it makes SAAK appear way more popular than he actually is.

Me ... I'm a solid three days into this whole "non-smoking" adventure, how one longs for a strong long black and a well rolled champion ruby ... ahhh the good old days.

2:31 PM  
Blogger muffin said...

Babe, today is my FIRST nonsmoking day. I must, must give up this time.

I have a headache and feel like I am going to explode.

Spam War. It's on.

5:10 PM  
Blogger cybele malinowski said...

muffin! stay strong! i know you can do it... just have a coffee and a drink, and the headache will fly away, with you replacement addiction.

no seriously, good on you. cigarettes are so overrated!

Xxxx

5:14 PM  
Anonymous bastillekid said...

yep, ain't easy but i'm with you, in spirit only of course, i know how tough it can be not feel those feeling anymore, but then make the feelings that are left all that more beautiful.

6:23 AM  
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1:54 PM  
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9:11 PM  

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